It's been a long time...

I shouldn't have left you without a dope beat to step to! - Timberland and AAliyah "Try Again"

Anyway loverlies, it's been a while. How's the fam? Just as I'd imagine them to be. Well, friends, I have a confession to make. I'm a fighter. I figured by now you've already pegged me as the kid who got suspended from the fourth grade for beating a 5th grader to a pulp on the playground. Ok, so that wasn't me. Ok, so it was! So, ok this crouching tiger hidden little scrappy from the hood part of me doesn't come as too much of a shock. Over the last couple weeks though, I almost surprised myself.

In 2 weeks, my car decided I wasn't giving it enough attention so it decided to act a bit (I'm kinda like the pimp and she's kinda like my hoe so I shelled out the dough and went back to her same old tricks), then I ran out of gas on my way to school (pumping gas is for poor people), I became single (which is surprisingly refreshing, singleton, I've missed you), my mother needed attention so she decided she wanted to be admitted to the hospital (only later to check herself out), I had to reschedule an exam (momma being in the hospital turned out to help me out a little), I lost a friend from high school, (RIP precious Andy), and really the list goes on and on. In the midst of all the crazy though somehow I made it through. The Kung Fu in me just kept fighting. Ok, so it was probably Jesus. To be honest, I was conscious that everything was going on around me but I was (thankfully) detached and basking in a sea of peace. His grace really is an ocean, we're all sinking :)

On the good note, I think I did extraordinarily well on my exam. Who know studying actually improves your score? Ha, I'm still not convinced. My car is now safe and has fuel. With my new found singleness my friends are all in a furry to get me married off (haha, more amazing posts about these events as they occur). Although, I'm not all that sure I want to start dating again. No, I'm not painfully heartbroken and just can't seem to move on. I'm just enjoying not having to consider anyone but myself right now. I never knew how much I took that for granted until I got it back.

Completely non-related (ok so perhaps totally related), but have you ever had days where you fail to think about what you say before you say it? Unintentionally, just plain say the wrong thing? I admit, I thought for a while I suffered from an incurable disease known as "Lost of Filter" aka "Diarrhea of the mouth" or "Madly inappropriate". During that time, I felt like I was out on my own all by myself. The random strange and sometimes remotely offensive outburst often got me kicked off the island. I started to believe I was the only one of my kind left. I figured natural selection took care of the rest. Then fate brought more people in my life and I soon realized my condition wasn't as bas as I thought. In fact, in comparison, I have a very mild case. I am actually perplexed as to how some of these people have made it this far in life. Well, no I'm not. I believe this disorder should be classified in the DSM and suffers shall go through extensive treatment that include antipsychotics, therapy and a honkin dose of Jesus. How did natural selection mess up so bad? Just saying. Night loves

Hey Baby, I'm a rockstar!

Big city...
Bright lights...
Sleep all day...
Long nights!
Hey baby, I'm a rockstar!!

Hey darlin loves, just thought I'd give you a heads up as to who I really am but I guess you already knew that. Sooooo I've been in school all of 3 weeks. Go me! Whoot! Test next week. Boo that!Am I studying? Um, er, well.. hmm. Kinda. I've just been suffering from lack of motivation and excess headache and ADD. Hopefully it shall pass.

Since the last time I talked to you, a lot's happened. Like I said, school started. I went to the beach, twice. My car decided that it needed attention in the form of brakes and rotors. Justin came back from Mozambique. He is in the process of readjusting to American life. I don't think enough soap in the world can get the smell of Africa off of him. He doesn't stink, he just smells like Africa, bless his heart.

I really like what I'm learning in school right now. Perhaps Emergency Medicine is on the table again? Perhaps. Cardiology, perhaps. The EKG's are da bomb, the heart sounds are a lot tricky. I feel like this is going to be a good year. But where, oh where, has my motivation gone? It's left me already. I had good intentions to be a great student but so far I'm coming up yay short. Pray.

So, I'm kinda STOKED about next week. It's my first site visit for rotations. I'm glad I have an excuse to travel around the state. I'm ecstatic that I get to see Linds and Anthony and Andrew! It seems like forever since I've seen them. So all the exciting things to come:

1) Site Selection. I will not stress out about it. God will send me where I need to go.
2) Grand Affair (I'm still considering it)
3) Boards

I'll keep you posted!